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1/29/2007 Wish for you....ohh` ytd went to eat steamboat with darlin, desmond, ryan & 1 of his fren. now i kinda scare of eating steamboat man. whenever i think of ZHENG FA steamboat at Marina South, i feel SICK
 . phobia of eating BACON, PRAWN & EGG!! see the pic below. feel so SICK of seeing so many damn egg wasted ok. all thanks to RYAN & DARLING for wasting food!  (wish.. wish.. wish..) i wish someone could buy me either 1 of the below TIFFANY & CO. necklace. (hinting my darling. wahaha)
 how i wish im RICH....so i can get all the TIFFANY & CO. necklace below.  Valentine's Day comin soon....what will my darling get for me?? i think is NOTHING! he will sure say, "THE MOST PRECIOUS PRESENT FROM ME TO YOU IS MY HEART!! I'VE GIVEN MYSELF TO YOU & NOW IT'S ALL BELONG TO YOU!!"  so my present is my DARLING!! happy & sad ok!! cus i got no surprise.  1/5/2007 Happy New Year 2007wee ~ days never blog already. yupe, im too busy & no time to blog. well, spent all my time with my darling & jader boy. LOL ~
31 Dec 06 - had dinner with my darling's family @ golden mile complex. wow ~ it's delicious, SEDAP!! then, went to play pool with darling & ivan. ok, i lose alright. damn it!! guys are BIG CHEATER cum BIG BULLY!! wahaha.. im not lousy ok!! im just being relax & let your guys win. LOL ~
 after dinner & pool, we went home & get prepare to go for Sentosa Siloso Countdown for year 2007. wee ~ its FUN when there's darling accompany. I LOVE YOU ~ Darling. ooh` luckily that  never go. else, it will spoil my damn mood.  1 Jan 07 - ooh` woke up in the late morning around 11am. so tired alright. hmm` today we shall bring Jader to palawan beach to enjoy. poor jader being at home & rot for so long. didnt enjoy playing in the beach. alright, mummy & daddy is good ok. ooh` jader had so much fun today in the beach. he knows how to swim. LOL ~
 Joy, Joel & Jader is so happy today!!  2 Jan 07 - today is a Public Holiday. ya` shiok!! haha. today accompany my darling go change his bike oil & after that we go marina south to eat steamboat. it's so yummy. darling cook for me to eat. LOL ~ i dunno how to cook la. im lazy alright.
yeah` thought of flying kite with darling after the steamboat. but, it seems like gonna rain soon. so, we go home & watch Rocky Balbao 6. havent show in cinema yet. wahaha.. & i already finish watching from Part 1 to Part 6. it's a nice movie. DONT MISS IT!! well ~ accumulated all my blog into 1 blog. LOL ~ anyway, im happy & i wish everyone HAPPY NEW YEAR 2007!! Great year ahead!!  12/24/2006 Genting trip...ohh` im back from my Genting trip. simply love my darling alot. wee~ i know i give you attitude and make you angry la. i know is my fault, but is not all just my fault ok! they too have fault alright.
 anyway, i dont wish to talk about those sad things. cus there's more happy times than unhappy times. as long as there is you to accompany me, im happy. ohh` i bought for my darling RENOMA's undies, PADINI's boxers & sockies. LOL~
darling very good..give me RM100 for shopping. yup` bought myself a sandals. i love it alot, thanks darling. day 2 - Ivan, Darling & me went to Snow World together. hoho` its fun alright. we throw the ice at each other. poor me kena bully by ivan & darling. they throw ice into my boots & make my leg freeze. @#!$#^$
 but its fun la. LOL~ we ask the photographer to help us take pics. wahaha~ after that, we eat delicious food. we eat 2 crab, black pepper & mushroom flavour & 1 butter cheese prawn. wooo~ its damn delicious ok. im drooling. LOL~ can u imagine, 2 crab each weigh 300g & 1 butter cheese prawn weigh 300g only for RM110+. my goodness, its CHEAP ok. day 3 - we're going back to SINGAPORE. ohh` wad a waste man! the midst is clear & finally the outdoor theme park is open. we do not have enough time to play the rides. holy shit! but nevermind, we go play bumper car & archery. LOL~ funny part is we go play archery, i dont even know how to shoot & end up most of it drop onto the floor. only some i manage to poke it in the circle. LOL~ shoot until my finger & arm so pain & tiring. wahaha~
but then, its still fun! another funny part is when playing bumper car. i go bang 1 small boy, then darling bang me from the back & my head knock until the pole & my beanie drop. @!#@%$^#! lastly, i hate you FELIX SOH!! u're simply not a MAN & dont call yourself a MAN ok!! it will make me puke.  such a coward & dont even admit that you're also in a fault. OMG~ pls la... at least i admit i give attitude all this but partly is because of YOU ok. i never say "ENTIRELY" your fault. so dont say i just pointing my finger at you, FELIX SOH. 12/19/2006 Genting, 2 days to go...woohoooo~ 2 more days i'll be going to Genting with my darling & frens.
now raining season, dont know if the Theme Park is open anot. hopefully, we go there can have some fun rides yea. hmm, i dont wanna miss the Snow World.
 if really raining over there & cant play the rides, well, we will go for shopping spree @ KL. i think RYAN must be damn happy if can go shopping. wahaha......hopefully, my damn gross wounds recover fast. else i'll cry like hell.
 3 days never go work liao.. pay also being deducted, so sad.  next month my pay sure very less. gonna cry out loud. GOD ~ BLESS ME & GIVE ME MONEY!!! 12/12/2006 I cant help but break down and cry...went to celebrate my mum's birthday today @ suntec, marche. my darling did show face, good!! thanks alot, darling. i thought you wont go, but u did. im really very happy. sorry, if i just now give my mum attitude. but i really didnt mean to. i feeling very uneasy just now. i simply no mood to stand there & hear them talk. i just wanna sit down & have a rest. SORRY!!!!
im feeling very down these few days. i dont know why. i break down easily & cry. hais. what should i do? can anyone tell me pls?
seriously i dont know why now a day, guys go for gers look & figure. & gers go for guys money, wealth, car/bike & etc.....
for me, i differ.
i love you for who you are, i love your heart & your soul. i dont love your money, i dont love your wealth, & i simply dont care if you do own a bike/car. cus i dont need all that. all i need is just your everlasting & eternity love. so what if you're rich, you can have everything that you want.. but there's 2 important you can never have in your life & that's LOVE & HAPPINESS. money can buy everything except LOVE & HAPPINESS. that's true ok.
my brain freeze, cant think of what i wanna write.
i just wanna tell my darling JOEL...
I REALLY LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART. NO MATTER WHAT HAPPEN, MY LOVE FOR YOU WILL NEVER FADE.
I'LL LOVE YOU TILL THE END OF WORLD, TILL IM OLD, TILL I DIE, YOU WILL THE ONLY ONE I'LL LOVE.  12/11/2006 Suddenly...i felt like im so unwanted...... =(my feeling right now:- frustrated, hurt, sad & sucks.
maybe im being too kpo but i really dont mean to. i jus telling the truth as im not someone who like to LIE!! cus i simply hate LIARS too. if the truth will hurt me or make me angry, i would rather face it than avoiding it. i would rather know the truth & know what i should do than being lied & make myself like a FOOL. sometimes i know that not knowing the truth, it may be a good thing. but have you ever thought that if one day you were to found out the truth & you're the last to know it, how would you feel? i can tell you, it will be 10x, 100x, 1000x more painful & hurtful than if you know it earlier. WHEN SOMEONE LIE TO YOU, DOESNT MEAN THEY DONT LOVE YOU. IS JUST THAT THEY DONT WISH TO SEE YOU SAD, HURT OR ANGRY. BUT ON ANOTHER HAND, THE OTHER PARTY MAY THINK IT DIFFERENTLY.
GUYS JUST DONT UNDERSTAND GIRLS WELL; & SO DOES GIRLS DONT UNDERSTAND GUYS WELL TOO!!
HE just dont understand me!! SAD~ PLS~ dont scold me using that 4 letter words. it hurts me alot. maybe you dont even care about my feeling anymore. its alright. i cant stop you from scolding me using vulgarity as that's your mouth. you speak wahtever you like. im not your mum or whoever to teach you manners.
maybe im afraid to lose you, cus i dont know how would i live my day without you. i dont know how to face the truth, i dont know how to walk out of my darkness when you're not there to see me thru.
lastly, i just wanna let you know that I REALLY LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART!!
NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE WHEN IM POSSIBLE. I CAN ACTUALLY LIKE SOMEONE WHOM I HATE MOST!! -UNBELIEVABLE!!
im too sad & hurt.. i need CHIVAS right now!! there you'll be~
WO AI DE REN, SHANG WO ZUI SHEN!! -TONG KU.... 12/9/2006 Casin0 r0yalohhh ~ today went to watch Casino Royal with HIM @ Bishan J8. LOL~ ya, nice show & luckily i did watch it. so long didnt watch movie with HIM & now... wow ~ watch 2 movies with HIM le.. last time we always like to go watch movie @ Toa Payoh... ya, really miss those days........
 hmm` saw a nice dress today @ Bishan J8. well` i like it & the price is reasonable la. $46.90 for a dress... hmmmmmmm... dont know is it very expensive. wanna have a look at it but... cant leh... running out of time.. rushing to go buy movie ticket. other day i go see see & buy myself bah.
finally its weekend again. rest day for me after 5 tiring & boring working days. hmm` cant wait to go Genting now. everyday im thinking of Genting. LOL~ well`i need to buy long sleeve clothing as i do not really have one. hmm` shall go for shopping tomorrow & see.
im waiting for HIM to be back home & back to my heart... i'll always wait for you to return...
LOVE YOU ~ 12/5/2006 if....... i wish...........yep, HE promise to accompany me go Genting on 21st Dec to 23rd Dec 06.
well, Ryan, Ivan & a fat girl is going with us too. Imran, Shi Zhong and Khee Tia will join us later on. yippie, so long never go Genting le. I think its gonna be more interesting and adventure than before. cant wait to go...... yoohooo~ tomorrow me & HIM gonna book the ticket for the trip le. so excited now. im very happy cus HE's going with me. yoohooo~ i wanna go the Snow World, cus i never went and experience snow before. i wanna go the Theme Park, cus i love exciting games (eg. ROLLERCOASTER ~ BrooooM....)if only im rich now, i wanna buy these things before i go Genting:-
[] boots
[] gloves & stocking
[] winter coat / jacket
[] winter clothing
[] jeans
[] scarf
[] winter earphone
if only im rich now, i wanna go for a HAIRCUT @ CHAPTER 2.
if only me & HIM can be back together again before we go Genting. i wish it will comes true... PRAY HARD!!
 I MISS HIM LOADS NOW~ 12/4/2006 updates.....ohhh` last sat took my baby Jader go for grooming. yep, decided to cut botak for him. 2 hours later, i shall see a brand new Jader. so during this 2 hours, i went to the coffeeshop to have my fav chicken rice. after eating, went over to his place to put the things which i spend overnight to complete and wanted to give him as a surprise when he's back home. so fast, its time for me to go fetch Jader back home. im on my way, he called. he ask me to wait for him at the shop as he wana see his baby Jader. alright, we waited for him. when i reach the shop to bring Jader home, omg~ i cant recognize him. a dog just run out from the grooming room and run around the shop. i see and say, ohhh~ whose dog is that?? so ugly!! lol~ then, steven laugh and said, of cus is your Jader la. i was like, REALLY ANOT?? how could it be my dog?? omg~ i carry him and indeed, its my dog ok. i cant stop laughing and here he came. below is Jader's before and after haircut pics. dont u think he changes alot?? dont even look like him in the past. so cute and adorable. now, look like alien. Jader, dont worry. mummy will still love you alright??
yep, 2 years ago we have a misunderstanding and end up, we broke up our brother-sistership. we were so damn close in the past, like real brother and sister. we joke around, fun around and when there's trouble, we never fail to help one another. ya, that's was in the past. one day, our brother-sistership just shattered into pieces. all b'cus of one f**ker alright. whenever i look back, i think im dumb to have trust a f**ker so much. b'cus of that useless f**ker, i sacrifies my most important and closes brother. hais. well, after 2 years, they contacted me again. yoohooo~ im happy. i dont know if they have forgiven me, but im really happy that they will still contact me after 2 years since we lost contact. well, i simply miss their jokes. "PUKIMA" ya, that's what we always call each other. "UHHH, SUP??" that's our greeting whenever we answer the call. LOL~ still got alot la.....
 for HIM... anyway, hope you'll like the things i've make for you. actually thought of giving you a surprise. nevermind la... its the same. you'll still see it. i just hope that you'll always remember the time we spent together, our memories. thanks so much for accompanying me to watch Happy Feet. i enjoyed it, so did you?? so sorry to cause your bike to break down in expressway. i shouldnt be so itchy hand to keep taking pic when you're riding. grr~ so sorry.
hmm, today mum called me. well, she said something which make me feel so eerie...... she told me... sis last night had a bad dream of me murdering a guy. alright, the guy if im not wrong is HIM. and its the second time my sis had the same dream. well` do you think i'll murder anyone?? hmm... mum asked GOD... GOD said, joy has put too hard and seriously into this relationship; and thus she dont know how to let go. hmm~ after hearing what mum has told me, my tears roll down my cheek. well` i cried is b'cus its so true of what GOD has said. maybe i really dont know how to let go, cus i really love him alot. yupe, I MEAN ALOT!! i love him more than anything else. now that i've lost him in my life, i dont know what to do?? i cant help but break down, and cry. i look back at my mistakes, i blame myself. but what can i do now?? i have tried to salvage the relationship. i really tried very hard to... but.........
ohhh` just waiting for you to return to my heart........ 12/1/2006 Stressed..hais... im very stress today. im really gonna break down soon. i cant take it anymore. i rather die then living my life each day like hell. oh` worst than hell. everyday im thinking of so much and yet i cant do anything, find no answer for it. i tried and tried... but..... too sad and hurt. im in office now. i really feel like going off now. i cant continue with my work. my brain is freeze, cant even concentrate on my work now. idling the whole day, im bored. i need a long break right now. sometimes, i really feel like just ending my life. cus i find nothing in this world to make me carry on with my life. hais......... how i wish im not born.. so i dont have to see this world.. get so much hurts..
im too sad and hurt.. stress is going to make me gone bonker soon.. i cant hold on anymore, gonna break down soon.... real soon..
Life simply sucks...
If only im dead... How good it will be..............................................
JOY IS DEAD AT THIS MOMENT!!! 11/28/2006 I need a long break...recently, im feeling so down... whatever i do or i say, things just dont work. eg. calculating payroll, i can actually made so many mistake which i usually dont; when he call me, all i say is just pissing him off; even sending him a sms, i could actually pissed him off as i talk alot of rubbish. hais. things just dont go smoothly for me. im tired, really very tired... i wish i could apply for a long leave and go for a holiday to relax myself. i need a break, a long long break... everyday i just keep thinking of so many things, stress over so many things till i gonna break down soon. no matter how much i drink, my mind just cant stop thinking of ....... i really dont know what to do. every now and then, i just cant concentrate on my work. in office, i idle for the whole day and staring blankly in my computer. i scribble all over the blank piece of paper, dont even know what im scribbling too. what has got into me? why am i becoming like this? argh~ 11/27/2006 Whatever...im sorry if my words hurt you, but pls understand me. now my life is sucks and i cant be bothered to think so much. yep, WHATEVER is all i could say right now. i cant be bothered about anything, anymore. i know you care alot for me, i know you worried about my health. but i just cant control myself to say all this words to hurt you. recently, im in a damn bad mood. i know my attitude towards you may be hurting. i dont respect you as my mum. but im truly sorry. now i really needs time to cool down myself. so, pls leave me alone. i promise you i wont do stupid things, alright. mum, i love you.
for you... maybe my message really pissed you off, im SORRY. i dont know why will i message you this kind of things. but when i read it many times, i think my message (i wouldnt say completly, but half of it) is also what you felt in your heart. am i right? WHATEVER it is, maybe your heart is no longer with me now and,or anymore. when i start to realise my mistake, its just all too late. alright, i'd learn to accept the fact, and i'd accepted my fate. thanks for the memories you have left for me. the memories you left, is a memorial ones. i'll keep it in my heart forever.
GOD ~ pls take me away from this empty world. lead me out from my darkness life. erase all my past memories.
GOD ~ pls bring me to a place where i can find peace, love and joy. enlighten my life once again. give me a brand new memory. 11/26/2006 Maybe, its my mistake.....finally i've completed something that is very important to me. luckily i manage to find the things i wanted to buy. hmm` though is really hard to find, but God bless me and lead me to the place where the shop sells exactly what im looking for. Thanks so much, GOD!! now there's only left 1 more last thing for me to do. well` i didnt do it before, but i gonna try it.
now im so broke. dont even have enough money to buy food for my Jader boy. dont even have money to bring him go cut botak as he got ticks on his body. i really dont know what to do. suddenly, i felt im so lousy. i cant give Jader the best, i even let my loved ones to walk away from my heart. instead of giving them the best i could, i actually let them suffer with me. now im so lost, so confused, i really dont know what can i do? maybe its my mistake to love you, my mistake to be with you, my mistake to have Jader in my life. end up, now all suffer in pain. if God can grant me a wish, i'll wish that i could turn back the hands of time.. cherish and love you more.
Rain, pls wash away my pain..  11/24/2006 When there's no CHIVAS....ooh` im feeling so tired today. last night didnt have a good sleep. well` cus i didnt drink chivas. chivas now is like part of my daily meals. with chivas: i can de-stress myself, i can forget my unhappiness and turn in to bed and have a good sleep. but when im awake, everything is back to normal. stress, unhappiness, everything just came back. grr ~ in order for me to be strong, i gotta depend on chivas. without chivas, im really lost in my own world. i'll keep imagine alot of things. ok, maybe u'll say im crazy.
now, he's happy being single. he can have his own freedom, dont feel much stress anymore. maybe i've really given him alot of stress in the relationship. well` SORRY & that's what i can say now. maybe you will be much happier without me. hmm` maybe being single also good bah. i can see that now you seems enjoying yourself. great to see you being happy. now im trying to let go of you, trying to let go of the relationship and forget about being with you again. cus i know that what you really need is what you're now, being SINGLE!! dont worry about me, i'll be fine. life have to go on... even if you dont leave me now, one day... you will leave me too. am i right? but i'll still love you no matter what happen and i'll be there for you if you need me.
I choose to love you in silence. Cus in silence, i find no rejection....
When love fades, nothing remains. We just gotta accept the fact and carry on with our journey....
every now and then, im thinking alot. im holding back my tears each time when i feel like crying. im really lost and confuse. my mind was like keep thinking, WHY ALL BECOME LIKE THIS?? WHY SUDDENLY IT BECOME SO WORST?? WHAT HAD REALLY HAPPENED?? how i wish i could just turn back the hands of time and all this doesnt happen..... but i know i cant.
now i really need time to fix my broken heart. i cant take anymore HURTS. i'll really break down one of these day.
hopefully, TIME WILL HEAL EVERYTHING. now i really dont know how long will it takes to heal ~ 1 year.. 2 years.. or 10 years?? seriously i dont know. cus it really hurts me deeply this time. i have no courage to pick myself up. i dont know how to falls for other and get myself into another relationship anymore. maybe i wont fall for another guy and get into any relationship anymore. seriously, i dont want it anymore. its too hurtful. i'll stop to love someone. i rather be single for the rest of my life and not to get hurt again.
WHEN I CANT TRUST MYSELF, I PUT MY TRUST IN GOD AND HOPE FOR MIRACLE.
I BELIEVE GOD WILL LIGHTEN UP MY WAY AND GUIDE ME THROUGH.....
hmm~ recently alot of my client keep asking me wanna join their company as a HR. well` they never see me before, dont know about my age, my qualification and working experience. i think if they see liao, sure faint. LOL~ anyway, im still thinking should i change anot. as my current company has so many stupid rules and restricted to use MSN and bla bla bla. somemore, as a recruitment consultant, i dont have much career prospect. unable to learn alot of things which i wish to learn. anyway, im still young, i believe i still can learn alot of things beside everyday viewing resume & coordinating. anyway, they're nice client and willing to wait for me to get my bonus then join their company. haha. if i turn their offer down, am i very bad? if i accept their offer, wah~ so many client, how to divide myself? well` if a company willing to offer me a HR post, doing recruitment, payroll and some other HR duties with a salary of $2000 & above, location is not far from my house and most importantly it must be a 5 days work week, preferably work from 9am - 5.30pm. maybe i'll accept it. hehe.
next year, i might further my studies. still thinking ~ what course to take, which school to choose, will it cost me a bomb and how about my Jader? hais~ ever since Jader came into my life, i know i have to commit myself to spend alot of time with him. well, its a commitment that i've made. i cant break my commitment, am i right? Jader, mummy will always be with you & take care of you. no matter what happen, mummy wont leave you alright? mummy love you. 11/23/2006 Crazy Shoppinghmm` today during my lunch, i went shopping to buy some things. *CANNOT TELL!! IT'S A SECRET!!* oh` bought 1 of the thing liao, but still left with 2 more things to buy. yay` the 2 things i think its very hard to find. hmm` after work went to some places to search for it. ask around so many shop & there's a lady whom told me that she knew of 1 place that sold that thing im looking for. but that place is so far away. somemore is under HDB flat. OMG~ i think i really gotta go somewhere else to search for it then. if really cant find it anywhere else, maybe i should go to that place which the lady told me. hmm` nevermind, with all means, i'll get it. decided to travel to m'sia to see if there do sell it anot. well` last time it seems everywhere can buy it. but now, it seems like i've to search for it. anyway` i think its worth it. LOL ~
today finally bought the shaving for my cutie hammies liao. yeah!! no more worries.
OH NO~ dunno how am i going to slp tonight without my chivas. SOB~
i need chivas badly ~ bring it over to me. 11/22/2006 UNLUCKY!!well` recently im being very unlucky. many bad things had happened. wtf~ what had got into me? pissed off~
hmm` today i lost one of the calendar. omg~ where has it gone to? argh~ yesterday just counted & it has 40 calendar. today when packing it, only got 39. so where's the 1 more? hais......... maybe my desk got mouses................................ LOL~ anyway, my boss gave me 1 more to replace it. well` never get scolded. LUCKILY...... 11/21/2006 Whatever it is..well` finally i got an answer for it. Thanks so much. Hope you'll be happy & i know you will.
hmm` recently im damn addicted to CHIVAS. didnt had a drink for so long, was afraid my liver couldnt take it as doctor warned me about my health problem. but now, after so many things had happened.. i simply cant be bothered anymore. i just wish to drink as much as i could, alright. dont ever try to stop me from drinking. dont ever try to make me change for who i am. cus no'one simply appreciate it & does not give a damn about it. i was such a fool to trust you. anyway, its the past. i dont wish to mention about it anymore. i learn to forgive & forget. i wouldnt be so dumb to get into another relationship anymore. ya` im too afraid alright. now, all i need is to be with my naughty Jader boy & my antidote, CHIVAS!!
gonna buy more CHIVAS & GREEN TEA to stock up my daily life.
CHIVAS` you're my heart, my soul & everything in my life. simply cant live without you. <3
now im listening to: TU AMOR by RBD. (simply love this song alot. -TU AMOR, means the world to me)
My Wish List(s):-
(1) RBD Album
(2) CHIVAS
(3) LEE HWA JEWELLERY
My wish shall come true soon ~ i'll buy you next week alright!! =) 11/20/2006 F**KING MooDLESSwtf man!! recently so many bad things just happen to me. why at this time, at this moment & why is it ME?? F**K man!! i cant stand it anymore la. when i try to change my damn attitude, there's no'one to support me, no'one to encourage me but instead, ppl trying to make me even ANGRY & PISSED OFF!! what all of u want from me?? you want me to change, & yet the other person keep giving me f**king attitude. pls la~ im not your maid la. u sick then i must take care of you. when i sick, who ever been there for me?? seriously, no'one ok!! not even the one i expect to be there for me. anyway, everything just simply sucks la. own family must be so stingy & calculative meh?? this one you buy cannot eat. then when you eat the things i buy, did i ever being so calculative anot?? whatever la~ im now f**king sick of everything la. i dont need anyone anymore la.
now i f**king hate my dad & my sis. (cus your just simply pissed me off!!)
at times, i hate my dog too. (you're being so naughty & irritating ok!!)
my feeling now is SAD, STRESS, CONFUSED, ANGRY & PISSED OFF!!
my hamster, xiao gua just passed away yesterday. head went missing. wtf!! so disgusting. im SAD for my hamster.
today, my dad call me to tell me that he has cancelled the Genting trip cus my sis say she dont wanna go, then next minute say wanna go. my dad never even ask for my permission & cancel away the trip. F**K la!! anyway, also good la. im damn ANGRY & PISSED OFF with my dad & sis. PLS LA~ make up your mind la.
im stressed today as too many things to do in office & im so sleepy. wtf!!
im confused as i dont know whether you love me or not?? who am i to you now?? i seriously have no clue about it. anyway, just hope that you will let me know asap. 11/18/2006 m0t0rsh0w 2oo6 @ SUNTECwell` an0ther surprise fr0m him again. c0me up wif0ut any n0tice. n0 call` n0 s0und & s0 secretly. L0L~ i think i g0nna g0 dig my ear lia0. he came up & 0pen the do0r & yet i dun even kn0w. 0mg~ if 0ne day g0t theif c0me my h0use, i think i als0 dunn0 sia. bleahs.
hmm` t0day went t0 m0t0rsh0w wif him. w0w~ g0t al0t 0f nice cars & bikes. grr~ if 0nly im rich, i'll buy all the nice cars & drive all ar0und Singap0re. wahaha~ im dreaming again. yalar` i like t0 dream al0t. it c0uld 0nly be a fantasy, will never c0me true. =(
to0k al0t 0f picture 0f him wif the cars & bikes. & i dun really to0k any picture 0f myself. cus im shy & i kn0w im ugly. take picture wif the cars 0nly sp0il the cars image. well` im n0t pretty, i admit. wads0ever. i am wh0 i bel0ng t0 will d0. i dun lik t0 make up t0 be pretty. i jus l0ve t0 be natural.
i simply l0ve this LAMBORGHINI... i wish if 0ne day i c0uld drive it ar0und the w0rld.....
anyway` i wanna thanks HIM f0r making my day wif surprise.. im really very happy & t0uched. i had fun t0day being wif u` s0 are u??
THANKS S0 MUCH!!!
L0VES <3
My Regret, A song of forgiveness - Karl KohlhaseI wish I would've said I love you You said the thing that hurt me most and I could not forget I wish I would've said I love you I had a million second chances that I let slip by I wish I would've said I love you Story behind this song.. "Let all bitterness and wrath and anger... be put away from you... forgiving each other, just as God in Christ also has forgiven you." |
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